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Hello Xavier, I would like to react to your article “aging or not?” Why aging? Why die? Nobody can really answer it. Our death, Castaneda calls it the Eagle, I believe. It is programmed, by whom and why? The subject of your reflection. Before you wrote this article, I told myself pretty much the same thing. Who benefits from our death? Here\u2019s my answer: to our soul.<\/span><\/p>\n

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What I think<\/h4>\n

Our reptilian creators created us genetically and implanted in us a program, to enslave and control us. This program is ego, malware, a computer Trojan. So we need anti-malware to eradicate it. This sophisticated anti-virus is awakening. Otherwise, we will remain slaves under their influence.<\/p>\n

But the Archons are neither our soul nor the source. The Archons are the masters of illusion, and astral travel is part of illusion. The illusory traps they offer us are only egregores from our collective unconscious since our reptilian conception. They manipulate us to idolize them. They also make us share some of their knowledge to better deceive us. They feed on our fear and ignorance. They parasitize us. I don\u2019t think the Archon is our inner pilot.<\/p>\n

\nThe Source<\/h4>\n

I believe that only our inner light counts, a liberating light wave that is the SOURCE. I believe that the soul needs the source. To do this, it materializes to “learn” from humans and evolve as a soul. That is why we must die physically so that our soul can reach the source. I think our death comes when we have learned enough from the Source, and it from us.<\/p>\n

Speaking of light, did you sometimes, like me, in the middle of the night, have visions of this inner light? A light sometimes more blinding than sunlight. I believe it is a kind of phosphenes but without any light source or retinal persistence. I still have no explanation…<\/p>\n

Coming to see you, I thought I had finished my research but my thirst for knowledge is even stronger than before… You opened my eyes to the other world. I now believe that I was already awake for a long time. Visions, or rather perceptions, go back to the past, as for example, the lightning bolts noisy (kind of lightning magnetic resonance) located in the skull. I can\u2019t describe it. It was like a sizzling electric flash — the kind of noise you hear near a street lamp post. I had always found it normal, in fact it was rises of kundalini.<\/p>\n

\nCastaneda<\/h4>\n

Right now, I\u2019m documenting Castenada\u2019s life. A remarkable man. I came across the article of a student who knew him: “The Tensegrity of Carlos Castaneda”. Tens\u00e9grit\u00e9tension+integrity is an architectural term that expresses the balance of a structure by its tension. In this article it has a spiritual connotation.<\/p>\n

\nI see a parallel with the middle way. Tensegrity achieves the perfect balance of forces of all kinds. It is true that the universe comes from a cosmic chaos and yet everything is regulated like a clock… Is it the source that is at the origin?<\/p>\n

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Hello Corolla, thank you for this letter, remarkable in every way. You are living proof that we do not age. I find it hard to believe that a 60-year-old just a few months before retirement has the energy to achieve this feat: progress on the path of awakening with the vivacity of a teenager. Better, even. For you add to spontaneity and enthusiasm the experience of a life with its riches and setbacks. He-who-has-never-been-lucky reveals himself in the open.<\/p>\n

\nAn insolent chance<\/h4>\n

Yes, you\u2019re lucky. And you\u2019ve always been. Yes, you\u2019ve been awake for a long time. It\u2019s hard for you to admit it. During the internship, I warned you there would be a delay effect. The revelations of your unconscious do not immediately reach your clear consciousness. They must make their way from your consciousness to your own magic, the one that allows you to understand the meaning of your life, the one that has allowed you to live with intensity the phases of awakening since childhood.<\/p>\n

Your magnificent letter has given me this phrase:
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No one is more enslaved than the one who falsely thinks he is free.<\/p>